Lately I have been absolutely loving this song
And towards the end of that video, it reminded me of this one
which was one of my very favorite songs back in college. Apparently I liked the whole Steampunk vibe even then lol. There is something just really fascinating about the idea of future and past meeting and blending in cool ways. Like the new Sherlock Holmes movies. Or the (sadly) short-lived Bruce Campbell series The Adventures of Brisco County Jr.
I think that like these songs, those ideas don't move just me. They're popular because they move something basic in us. A longing for adventure, for stirring emotion, for excitement, for creativity, and new ideas. The past meets the future and it is sublime - everything maybe our present is not.
How often do we not live in the present? We are stuck in the past...tied to guilt or the consequences of our poor choices, or others' poor choices which affected us. Or we are looking to the future, thinking that things will all get better "someday", or focusing so much on achieving our goals that we don't stop to "smell the roses".
I've done both, and plenty of it! But I've been thinking so much lately about living in the moment, appreciating each experience I'm being blessed with (whether it feels like a blessing at the time or not). If I'm constantly beating myself up about my past or living in the future in my mind, what am I missing right now?
But what if I feel like I've messed things up beyond repair? This has been my struggle for the past several months... evaluating the choices I've made... what could have/should I have done differently? Where would I be if I had done X instead of Y? Would I necessarily be happier or better off?
And then, the earth-shattering revelation...What if right now I'm exactly where I need to be? What if all those "mistakes" got me to deal with old hurts that were still haunting me? What if without those trials I wouldn't be who I am now? What if I would still be stuck in old patterns that were sucking my very life away? What if now really is the perfect time? The time of Healing, the time of New, the time of God doing Amazing things in my life!
This last video sums it up perfectly. My favorite song for a couple years now... every time I hear it, it moves me. I would encourage you to really listen to the words.
It's time for healing, time to move on
It's time to fix what's been broken too long
Time to make right, what has been wrong
It's time to find my way to where I belong
There's a wave that's crashing over me, and all I can do is surrender
Time for a milestone, time to begin again
Re-evaluate who I really am
Am I doing everything to follow Your will, or just climbing aimlessly over these hills?
Time to face up, clean this old house, time to breathe in and let everything out
I believe You're up to something bigger than me
It feels like chaos but now I can see!
Something Heavenly
What if right now, right where I am, is truly something Heavenly? I'm giving in!
